Written by Shatara Monet
Oh Black woman ! Why are you so upset?
Walking around here with your face like that?
What has the world done to you besides hurt you with no regrets?
Some days I feel like I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and can't pick my head up. Even with that feeling inside, the world still thinks I am angry and stuck up. It hurts to carry this pain and look myself in the face and pretend its okay. I suffer and most times I suffer alone. That is why my face looks like black stone.
Oh black woman! You have always been strong you can think like that because you are wrong. Give it to Jesus ! Say his name! I promise if you believe in him you will change.
What about the times I called on Jesus and Jesus never came. What happened to the time when I said his name and I didn't change. Why cant my feelings be real? Why can't my village help me heal? You want me to get on my knees and pray my pain away. Give it God and still feel the same way?
Oh Black Woman ! Why are you playing victim? Your not suffering your just being weak. You should be grateful you have a place to sleep. You have been doing this for 400 years so why change now? Count your blessings and don't question God. It is a reason your here , your trials make you strong.
See thats where your wrong, because depression and anxiety is real and it doesn't make me feel strong. Even when I know things around me are good I still think everything is wrong. I feel like I always hurt the people around me.
To be continued...